My FMIL has something wrong with her ~ and I don't mean that in a funny way. My fiance' doesn't even really know what she has. When we first met, he told me she had "severe depression or something". But as our relationship progressed and I witnessed first hand how she is, I think it's a bit worse than just depression. I really don't know what it is. Last week we went to his parents' house and his mother just broke out into tears. I asked what was wrong and she just went on and on about our wedding. She said that she was very happy for us and she knows I'm good for her son and she wishes us all the best, but she doesn't know if she can cope. I asked what exactly she meant by that. I thought maybe she was just really sad about 'losing' her youngest son. But she went on to say that she doesn't know if she can cope with being around all those people. Apparently she has major issues with being around alot of people. I guess that's part of whatever she has. I tried to calm her down, telling her the wedding was still over a year away and she was getting herself all worked up for nothing. Though I'm sure it wasn't just nothing to her, and I understand that. I also tried to give her comfort in the fact that our wedding is going to be small ~ only 70 people and that's including myself, my fiance', the photographer, the DJ and his assistant. So, after that little situation the other day, I came to realize that she may not even be at the wedding. If she's freaking out this bad now, over a year away, then who knows what the hell is gonna happen when the actual wedding is here. I don't feel comfortable asking my FFIL. My fiance's family is pretty quiet and keeps to themselves. To me it's a bit odd, but they like, only talk to eachother on a need to know basis. Which unfortunately, is most likely why my fiance' is shy and not very confident in himself. I've been slowly trying to break him out of his shell and get him doing more things for himself. Which he has got a bit better since we've been together, but not quite where he needs to be as an adult. Don't get me wrong here, I like his parents ~ they raised him the right way, with good morals and a good heart. But I guess you could say that I'm kinda pissed at them for not being open with him and for not sitting down and talking with him just to talk. I told my fiance' that I do not want that to happen with our future childen. It's very important to me to have a good relationship with our kids. I want them to be able to ask/talk to us about anything and to not be affraid to come to us. I don't want our kids to be strangers to us ~ because that's exactly the kind of relationship my fiance' has with his parents and I can see what that has done. Sometimes I just sit and wonder ~ what the hell am I getting into? At times, it feels like I'm holding everything and everyone together. Trying to plan this wedding all by myself, being supportive of my fiance' and his family troubles, taking care of everything that needs to be done around the house on a daily basis....it's alot for one person. If I'm holding everyone together....then who's gonna prevent me from falling apart?